1) Daily heroic and weekly raid quest on all my 80s.

2) Daily cooking/fishing quests.

3) Wintergrasp quests.

4) Auction house scouting (Horde and Alliance).

5) Re-spec/glyph/gem for Halion 10 heroic.

6) Argent Tournament dailies.

Then, after all this is done, maybe spend some time sleeping. After raid.

Maybe I should mercy-delete a few characters so I wouldn’t feel obliged to spend time on them everyday to make sure they’re not feeling too bad about being an alt.

Received angry letter this morning from former friend. He has determined all by himself that we are no longer friends and that I am being flippant. Do not know how to respond since every response will be read as flippant. Tried to be reasonable but he will probably disbelieve me, since nobody believes me about anything important ISN’T THAT FUNNY. Have felt lost at sea and lonely when logged onto Wow this past week. Cannot confide on current only friend since he’s a kid and should not be forced to share in my troubles with irrationally upset people who will not stop accusing me of things I am not aware of. Am happy with new guild as I’m able to take a backseat and just focus on the boss fights with nary a care in raid groups otherwise. Have found jerkass in new guild already who is irritating and deserves to be slapped about a bit; he’s not made me too upset as I hardly know him and possibly I have started distancing myself further from the game.

I feel like Halion – shifting in and out of corporeality – a stroke in and a step out of the game world as social ties ebb and flow. That I am focusing more on real life happiness is a good sign of mental and emotional stability returning an entire year of mourning after the death of THE HAMSTER. Chinchilla therapy has helped although he’s already chewed through more electrical cords than I am quite comfortable with. His little tail swishy dance of squeek-squeek happiness when he’s particularly pleased with me brings me almost more joy than I can endure.

Animals always believe me when I treat them ok and I say ‘hey i love you let’s be friends’. They know I have no hidden words behind my teeth and no secret meanings poking fun at their furry little bodies, no bitter words left unsaid when I am completely incapable of keeping quiet about anything, seriously. Humans should try to do the same, I know I could take a lesson or five from a kindly doggy or cat. Seeing evil meanings everywhere, I’ve read, is a projection, but I’m not sure of what exactly. A projection of past betrayal or one of the soul?

Thankfully the new guild has nobody who is really very charismatic or kind so I run little risk of developing an inappropriate crush. Very good thing I didn’t tell that mage from previous guild about my crush as he turned out to be rather cold when I tried to say hello again the other day. Am regretting being a heavy childhood reader as I could tell his sentence structure was formal and distant and not happy with me. Maybe I was projecting, maybe not. But am rather tired (so tired) of people changing and showing me their true unpleasantness when I just wanted to hide away and pretend we could all be friends still. If I make no close friends or form tight knit groups in new guild, it will be a bloody blessing.

Very tired all the time. Rogue friend says I should see a doctor. Blood tests, etc. as I have history of low blood pressure under stress and sudden collapsing onto inconsiderately placed sharp and immovable objects (no maidenly faint from me!).